Slow Starter

I’ll miss mornings like these at the LCITW.  I wouldn’t call myself an early bird, but I am very much a morning person.  I rather like everything about morning but especially like the light.  The light looks just like I feel — slow, stretching, rising, reaching, yawning, tea brewing, daydreaming morning light.  Beautiful.  It’s like being with a good old friend, easy and bright…which is a magical thing to think about — being friends with a distant star that regularly supplies my mornings with ancient light.  It’s the little cosmic things that make all the difference…

Robert is an early bird.  He hops right out of bed with bright, beady eyes and gets to it.  It’s almost disturbing to witness the tiny violence of him leaping into day the way he does.  He really grabs morning in his teeth and gives it a shake.  I like to wake up, lay about in the warmth of my sleep coccoon daydreaming and drowsing before I finally get up, wander down the ladder to the main floor in the cabin and begin my morning ablutions.  I quit drinking coffee.  Did I tell you that?  I quit early on in the summer.  I woke up one morning and opined aloud, “I think this junk hurts my stomach.”  That morning, I had herbal tea instead, and then the next day too, and so on and so forth until I was an official non-coffee-drinker.  It wasn’t hard.  It feels good.  My stomach feels much better, all the time.  On a whim, I made myself a cup a few weeks ago, just to see what would happen to me if I reintroduced it to my purified system.  I spent most of the day twitching and stuttering, my limbs were herky jerky, my mind was racing.  It was awful.

Anyway, now that I am exclusively a tea drinker, I brew my tea (today it is double bergamot earl grey decaf) and usually go for a walk in the woods with my cup in hand (out to the tabernacle) or I settle down on the loveseat here and write for a while.  Sometimes I write for me, other times I pen letters to far away friends.  The dogs come in and out, checking in on me, waggling and wiggling and smiling.  Farley puts his head on my lap and asks for a ear rub.  Tater Tot bites my pen.  They like the morning too.  Penelope usually hops up with me and curls herself around my feet which is a soft and warm sensory experience.  I have been known to say that I keep a weenie dog simply as a foot warming apparatus.  But don’t worry, I am sweet on her beyond this appointed capacity of hers.  Unless she’s being bad.  When she is bad, she’s terribly bad.  And the cat?  Rhubarb is usually passed out somewhere after a night of hunting in the wilds here.  He brought home a rabbit two weeks ago.  Unbelievable, right?  It was sad, but only natural.

My mornings dawdle, draw themselves towards noon — creeping, leaping, shimmying and sashaying.  After my first cup of tea, I have a second.  I make something to eat.  I dawdle about some more.  I sketch out a ring idea.  I tidy the kitchen.  I go running.  I wonder what the new bird song is I’m hearing.  I feed the cat.  And eventually I make my way to work where I usually stay late.  Last night I was in the Airstream until 10PM or so.  A late start means a late end to the day.  I’m slow to begin but a strong finisher.  I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I wonder though, what are your mornings like?  What would you change, if you could?  What is the very best thing about the way you start the day?  I ask because I want to know, but also because it’s good to inspect things from time to time, make the changes that need changing and appreciate the things that need appreciating.

Have a good one, you wild pack of sweet little corkers.

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[Early this morning at Little Cabin In the Woods — before I put on my socks.]

It’s hard to work in the Airstream now.  I dress like an onion, bundled up in endless layers (wool, down, silk long johns). I can’t manage to keep my hands warm as I work and I shiver all my calories away.  I eat constantly and seem to continually have two cups of tea on the go throughout the day.  The thick timber around our little clearing casts broad shadows and blocks the few hours of direct sun we receive on either side of noon. We store our bag of ice out on the cabin deck.  It doesn’t melt.  We leave the kitchen faucet trickling when we go to bed so the pipes don’t freeze in the night.  I bet this is such a lonesome, dark, cold place in the winter months.

RW took a late season work detail starting tomorrow morning and he’ll be away for a week.  I don’t know how I’m going to stay warm at night!  I’ll have to invite all the beasts into bed with me.  What a wild rumpus that will be.

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Frozen water pipes this morning.  Someone, please, teleport me a hot cup of coffee!

[I take it with lots of milk and a little honey.]

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Sleep Theory & Other Things

A couple of months ago, when RW and I were about to fall asleep some moonlit night, after a long, hot July day, I mumbled out to him my theories on sleep and why it’s necessary for the soul.  I often drowsily pontificate on existential topics or supernatural theories right before I fall asleep at night and he’s quite thoughtful and kind to lay there and listen to me instead of refute all of the crazy things I’m saying which is one of the greatest things about Robert — he might not always say as much as I say but he’s always thinking about one million rich things and that’s why his eyes are so beautiful and bright.

On that particular night, I was telling him all about why I think our souls need sleep.  I think we are born soft and the older we get, the harder we get.  Think of work hardened metal that is beat up and bashed and hardened over time — crystal lattice winding down tighter and tighter until the metal is rigid and brittle and the slightest attempt  to bend it results in shattering it.  I think humans get this way, mostly from getting slapped around by other humans, tragically, and from the general wear and tear of life.  I think the softness of our souls keeps us supple in body, mind and spirit.  I think we maintain soul softness by sleeping.  It’s the part of a 24-hour day when we get to unplug, return to a sort of infancy in our feather lined cradles, shut our eyes and cascade, cell by cell, into a canyon of dreams and eye fluttering.  It’s a sort of miracle when you stop to think about it.  So many people are too stressed to sleep these days, too busy to sleep, or too imbalanced to sleep and they walk around our fair Earth hardened and unhappy.  I know how I feel after a horrid sleep or lack of sleep — edgy, cranky, short tempered, selfish — I find myself running about life, unfocused, pinging off of the people and things around me.  Chaotic.  Disordered.  Hard of soul.  When I have slept well, it’s just the opposite.  I am slower to speak, kinder, patient, unflappable.  Generally nice in most ways.  When I wake up in the morning after a wonderful sleep I feel soft and wholly beautiful.  I’m a clean slate.  My eyes are warm.  My heart is home to bird thrums and joyful expectation.

We plug our phones into electrical sockets to recharge them.  To soften and re-energize our souls, we lay our bodies in our beds.  Perhaps the soul is the battery of being?

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Last night was my second sleep at the little cabin in the woods.  I was exhausted and in need of sabbath.  I had a truly wretched day in the studio.  I ruined a couple of things I was working on and nearly bashed my kneecap off my leg when I slipped while stepping up into the Airstream — hurt like the dickens.  In hindsight, I should not have worked yesterday and should have taken the day off.  I was worm-eaten by fatigue and operating on a mere fraction of my regular verve.  Life has been too fast lately.  Too fast and overfull.  I put myself to bed early last night and slept deeply until the dogs woke me this morning.  Once  awake, I stayed in bed with a book for another couple of hours, listening to the pups out in the woods, digging and rooting around after musty scents under the douglas firs.  The chipmunks were in the trees clashing their castanets together in the sunrise and day glimmer.  I lifted from bed, stood on the upper deck for a while, feeling tall as a tree, breeze wrangling.  I made a decanter of coffee and, as is my usual habit, I went out to walk in the pungent duff and light of the forest morning, feeling malleable and kind.  Assured of the goodness of life with each breath I took in and out.  Watching bird zoom and grass riffle.  Generally, such a marvelous way to begin the day.

There are so many new and wonderful sounds to learn, living in this tall forest.  A woolly little hawk flew past my face a few days ago, with the remains of a rabbit in its talons.  Yesterday morning, while driving into town, a ruffed grouse ran ahead of the truck for the better part of a minute before stepping off the side of my ingrown driveway to giving me an enticing and majestic feather display (though he didn’t drum for me), I let him go on and on about his immaculate attributes it until I finally found the courage to tell him that I am happily married and he’d have to find another bird to love.  (Wrong season, anyway.  Poor thing.)

On this fine day, I will eventually have to go down the mountain to make an appearance at the post office before I meet up with a friend for a horseback riding date after which a wonderful family of friends hopes to feed me steak and potatoes for dinner because apparently, I’m looking too thin.  Can you imagine?  I think that by the time tomorrow morning spins into being, I’ll be feeling clear of my previously atrocious studio day and ready to work again.

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The dogs just came rollicking and galloping into the cabin like schooners at play in a stiff wind.  It’s chaos, toe claws and pink tongues mopping the cabin floor.  They smell of tree sap, merry tributaries, the fringed edges of summer, kestrel wings, ladybug snouts, bear claws.  Life is overwhelmingly delectable.

Little Cabin In The Woods

At the risk of confusing you all greatly, I must inform you of the current transition I am tackling in case there should be long and wide pauses in various types of communication!  I’m moving!  We’ve lived in this little Methow home for three months now and a few days ago the owner, who happens to be a fisherman in Alaska in the summer months, announced his impending return.  We hummed and hawed a little about what the heck to do with ourselves and made the decision to stay in the valley as long as we can this fall, as long as RW can work, probably until very late in the month of October.  The decision came as a great relief to me as I just began to settle into life and work here and didn’t feel prepared to make the big journey home, as much as I miss and love Idaho.  I’m a little tornado of packing-ness, collecting our various piles of things and shuttling them over to the other side of  the valley, up a mountain, down a very winding road, alongside a cliff, over a large bump, to a beautiful douglas fir and ponderosa pine forest where a very little cabin exists in practically perfect sweetness and is really, in every way, ideal for this little goldilocks!  It really is quite small, the downstairs must be slightly over 100 square feet with a fairly good sized annexed bathroom and a wee ladder that goes upstairs into the loft where there is one bed that is just right.  Little cabin in the woods is rather isolated and the forest is some kind of gleaming quiet, the light trickles down through the conifer canopy like arpeggios.  All is peaceful there, except for the bear.  He’s noisy.  That’s not a joke.  Little cabin in the woods comes with a rotund black bear who has been dipping his nose in caramel.  He’s the cutest thing.  We had our first meeting yesterday.  I must have scared him because he ran directly up the side of a mountain slope and that couldn’t have been easy running.  Nothing I love more than a spooky bear — it means I probably won’t be eaten.

I do confess, I worry I will be lonesome in this location.  It’s in such a silent, isolated nook on the mountain and seems to take fairly enormous effort to get to, or even find!  I supposed I will have to be the sound, the color, the zingy little human, the texture of life there in my forest.  That said, the Airstream cannot make it down the gnarly road that leads to this bitty abode and I’m going to have to park my big, silver studio at the base which means I’ll be commuting to work for the next couple of months.  Robert is dubious, but I know I’ll love an eternal, wild bike ride every morning.  I can already tell, I’m going to write deeply in this little wood as well as make wonderful photos.  I feel so lucky to be moving into such a quaint space, right when the forest is going to begin to prepare for the long sleep of winter.  Come the gold and crimson, set me whirling.

The summer truly feels as though it’s winding down now, or being gathered up and compressed into tight ravels, a fuzzy ball of yarn.  The sun slants are growing soft, curving, tinged at the edges with blue.  There’s a delicious chill in the morning air and I warm my hands on cups of tea and coffee.  I’ve been wearing little wool sweaters, boots, I’m shifting into richer colors, I think about wearing fingerless gloves as I type this.  At night, I’m sleeping under two blankets instead of one, Robert is away and there’s nothing to keep my feet warm, deep in the sheets and quilts — I read later than I should, because lamp light is cozy, and night comes earlier than expected.  The deer will unveil their antlers soon.  Canada geese are on the river.  Are you ready for a shift in seasons?  I’m not sure I want to stop swimming in lakes and rivers, growing flowers, riding my bicycle through the nights with starlight as my crown, with my long hair whispering on bare shoulders, with night bugs crooning their creaking melodies, and the river waters holding the edges of everything in perfect order.